hear me roar

I really wish I could double major in Women's Studies! Too bad my school is strictly art related. Although, I'm going to try and take a course at the local community college over summer. I hear so many things about women's studies majors, I'm just curious to go check it out for myself. Rachel said, "No, don't do it! If you turn into a crazy feminist.. I will not be friends with you!" Love all the support ;)

I have been thinking a lot about gender and sexuality issues lately. I had this pretty intense talk with Rachel about my own sexuality, today. I talked about how disgusted I am with the bi-phobia I see and hear regularly. And honestly, I don't even feel like bisexual is a word that accurately describes me in any way. I use it as a simple way of saying, "Hey I like chicks and dudes." But even then, it's nowhere near simple. I dislike that my sexual orientation is brought up almost every time I meet someone new. I guess that's because I hang out with nothing but lesbians/queers.. and since I don't "look gay" they feel the need to ask. We also chatted about since most of my friends are out and loud about their sexuality.. they don't understand why I am not so loud about it. I have no problem with being out, and I will tell anyone that asks.. I just don't like it being the topic of conversation. If that makes sense.

I have been playing around with my options lately. I have been questioning everything that has been put in front of my eyes, to see. There is a lot going on in my mind lately, and no one has really taken the time to ask about it. I've been asking so many questions, to try and gather more information about people as a whole. I've always been so into individualizing things, and separating my ideas from the norm... but for once, I want to explore the 'norm' and see if it's what it's all cracked up to be. I'm addicted to new knowledge about topics that my family nor my friends discuss much. I'm really enjoying myself.

I am a woman, hear me roar.